I hope i can keep this up, iv been down in the dumps for 2 long.
Ive never felt sorry for myself, i always push myself for something better, to do something better than i did before, to be independant & go out there with strenght to challenge anything that comes my way.
For a long time i have just been letting life pass me by & been getting on with it. Well no more, im not staying put any longer, im moving on & i feel the time has come to go up a level.
Today, when the alarm went off, i lay there for a second thinking, do i get up now, or in a bit, i moved straight away & got the kids breakfast, had a quick bath & got everyone ready & out the door on time!!! Even though the weather was nasty & wet, i still went forth & prosperd, {so to speak}
Today i am proud of myself & 2mor i will do it again!
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I found this on a forum today & it touched my heart, i thought it was a good way of explaining something not usually understood by those who have not experienced.
Journaling is a poem about raising a child with special needs.
"Welcome to Holland"
By Emily Perl Kingsley, 1987. All rights reserved.
I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......
When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.
After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."
"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."
But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.
The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.
So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.
It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.
But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."
And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away...because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss. But...if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.
